-= prata plaster =-

http://www.sbestfood.com/fayidha.htm

There for all you prata plaster skeptics. There's proof that there is such a thing. And no, that's not one of my menus. Hah. If you wanna know how it looks like, just imagine, plain prata with a fried egg stuck onto it. Yeah. Something like that. If you stilldon't believe wait one day I buy for you. Hahah.

Okay. I think that's about it. Four Tones here I come. Woo!

This was written at 2:04 pm on Wednesday, August 31

-= longer update =-

Apparently, my previous update wasn't long enough. So err.. Here's something longer?

Spanish La Liga is up and about! Weee! And Atheletic Bilbao won 3-0! Woohoo!

It's the typical long boring sunday like every week of my dear boring eventless life. Hai... *shakes head* Thank god for Indonesian commercials.

4 more days and it's already September. How time flies. Looking forward to December. Hahah. Some goon just made my day yesterday by being such a bloody motor mouth. I'd rather not elaborate on that explicit event. Heheheh.

Be a man.

Random fact: Eating prata plaster with tulang is probably the best breakfast there is.

Ini smart ya.. Mmmm!

My cd burner is burnt. Get it? Cd? Burn? Burner? Burnt? Get it? Get.... it??? No? :(

Get it? C'mon...

Okay. Let's play some tetris. Cheerio.

This was written at 6:54 pm on Sunday, August 28

-= apparently =-

What's there left to write? Everything I say may and can be used against me. Life's a bore. Probably because of the environment I grew up in. Or was it due to genes? I doubt it's genes. I have such bubbly parents.

I don't think there's anyone reading this blog anymore. So yeah. Let's not waste my time typing long stuff. I don't need to tell everyone about my life anyway. They'll just use it against me. So yeah. Happy Sunday.

This was written at 1:07 pm on

-= amazing grace =-

I'm writing just for the sake of it.

This was written at 11:13 pm on Wednesday, August 24

-= street ball =-

Had the street soccer competition yesterday. Emerged 6th out of 50 plus teams. Won ourselves $240 cash. That'll be $40 each. Which is good for 72 minutes worth of work. Heh.

The rain stopped. Why???

I think I'm in dire need of sleep.

Well, good day everyone.

This was written at 3:13 pm on Sunday, August 21

-= tvangeste =-

To be or Not to Be? There's no such question!
To Be! But to be What?

A weak-willed sheep that's taken to the slaughter house
Or a proud wolf whose heart is filled with freedom?

What's in your eyes, Human?
Fear or rage? Blind submission or Resistance?

-Tvangeste

This was written at 9:05 pm on Friday, August 19

-= when in doubt, choose both =-

To care or not to care.

That should be the question.

This was written at 1:02 am on Thursday, August 18

-= let's play poker =-

Had a dream last night. Or was it earlier in the morning? Hmmm.. Anyway, it says I need to take chances. The thing is, with what? With who? When? Where? Argh...

Lalalalala~

This was written at 5:09 pm on Monday, August 15

-= transfixion for the butterflies of joy =-

isolation is complete
diseases on our skin
reflect us upon the earth
the light is dim and the air is dead
through delirium i realized why

now i draw the line
to resign from the world of mine
begin from being no one
rise higher and higher to hit the ground
see divided earth as reflections:
debris of mankind under desperation
rise higher and higher to hit the ground

bid farewell to the casket vultures
maggots our only friends...from now on
a magnet-like deadend trap
awaits us all in the end

and it is so...
futile - in the end, fragile -in the end
precious -in the end, vicious -in the end

our shelter is the emptiness
the stretched void for all
dying arrangements demand
bittersweet caress after all
nihilistic - perfection - nihilistic
transfixion for the butterflies of joy
the truth unfolds: to the end with nothing...

like thy insects in envenomed rapture
they reach for the warmth, light and the beauty
wings burnt, pin-transfixed and lifeforce wither'd

bid welcome new airless home in a box
maggots our only companion from now on
sinews relaxed you know this can't go on forever
it awaits us all in the end

This was written at 11:20 am on Sunday, August 14

-= wheat grass =-

I just found out that wheat grass drink doesn't tastes so bad afterall. There wasn't any grass taste or smell as I thought there was. And it tastes like chin chow. ^_^

I am stressed. Why? I also don't know.

Been eating chocolates everyday. No surprise my weight has gone up to 60kg again. Grrr... Why doesn't anybody just finish up the rest of the chocolates so there's none left for me. But that would just mean I'll go down and buy a bar of Snickers or Time Out or whatever I'm in the mood for. Wasted ar mama shop don't sell Willy Wonka stuff. Hai...

Finally got my printer to work. The printing quality ain't so good anyway. Pictures come out dark.

Sleep. I can't get more than 5 straight hours of sleep nowadays. It's usually 3 hours then 3-4 hours of consciousness then another 2 or 3 hours of sleep then 12 or so hours of unconscious-consciousness. So yeah, I think that literally classifies me as a zombie most of the time.

My room is a bloody mess. Not really bloody as in blood but as a metaphor. So yeah. I'll probably clean it up today. I'm still waiting for a new table. When will you buy me one lah dei?

Okay. Guess that's it ar. EPL starts today. Hope Man Utd loses. Hah!

This was written at 2:14 pm on Saturday, August 13

-= don't come crying =-

Well.. You should be happy now I guess. After all that, I mean who wouldn't right? Getting what you want. Feeling happy and all. But I guess that's what you've always cared about haven't you? Yourself.

Well I'm not gonna flatter you anymore with all these mushy stuff. So yeah. I hope you're happy with what has become of all this, though I might not be. But who cares right? Definitely not you. Yeap. Live long and prosper man.

WEEE - Waste Electrical and Electronic Equipment.

-_-

This was written at 10:26 pm on Thursday, August 11

-= midtown madness =-

Travelled half of Singapore on an empty stomach for 2 jamming sessions. Madness!

I donno ah...

I really don't know ar...

What's there left to do now? Hai...

This was written at 12:48 am on

-= part 2 =-

National day is a weird day for me. Everybody's out enjoying themselves while I sit at home and worry over nothing. I'm on my lowest of lows and I don't think there's anything much that can make me feel better. So what if there's a parade. So what if there's fireworks. In this state of mind, I practically just don't give a damn.

Wish I could just sleep.
Wish I could explain.
Wish I could change the way of things.
Wish I would fall away.

This world I live in is empty. Outside I think I'll choke.

What's causing me to feel this way? I just don't get it. Why do I keep worrying about things that are of no relevance to anything? I wonder how much longer my brain will last.

So much for a happy National Day.

This was written at 5:03 pm on Tuesday, August 9

-= sinbad aku score lagi =-

The past few days were good compared to most other days I had. Played PS2 for two days. =]

Managed to win Hairul lots of times just now. Wee~

My monitor is dying. My wife is dying. Noooo.....

I tend to sit down and ponder about things more often nowadays. Often about current issues and the future. I tend to be waking up early these days as well. It's like my mind refuses to rest and wants me to keep on thinking and worrying about things.

Oh well.. Doubt there's anything else that goes on here anyway. Happy National Day people.

This was written at 2:09 am on

-= goyang goyang =-

Yas' band did okay yesterday. Though I think the drumer could have been more gentle. Hahah. And they didn't get top 3. How can one? There was a band that played Zombie. Wah. Heh.

My dad asked for the lyrics of the goyang goyang song. He said he wants to play it. ~_^

Morning was a waste of time. But okay ah. Talking with Danial is kinda fun.

The day seems so slow but it's already 4.30. I think I'm having a brain lag man..

Guess I'll go to bed.

Good day everyone.

This was written at 4:22 pm on Saturday, August 6

-= shopping =-

I don't get it man. What's so great about shopping? Blergh.

I bought 7 cds for $14. =)

I have new earphones. Yay!

I have a new keyboard and mouse!

I will stop here.

This was written at 10:13 am on Friday, August 5

-= 5pm?? =-

My stamina has seriously dropped. Went cycling. After only about 2 to 3km of speeding, I was already out of breath. Blergh. Gotta workout more already. And not to mention that bulge in my belly that I have ignored for some time already.

Looking forward to the last two weeks of August.

Lotta Hoglin's the bomb man... *drools* Especially in those new promo pics. Argh!!!

I'm out of instant noodles. Myabe I'll go get some with that $50 voucher of mine. And apparently it could be used on movies as well. Weee!

Vrei si pleci dar Numa numa iei
Numa numa iei numa numa numa iei

And that has to do something with trees and love. ~_^

I'd like to say thanks to my crazy cousin Hazim for downloading techno songs for me. Thanks man!

Guess that's it I guess. Happy new year.

This was written at 4:55 pm on Wednesday, August 3

-= the last of frontiers =-

The world is going to end. I don't know why.

Sentenced is back in my D: drive again.

So calm and still... It wasn't all that bad, or was it now?

The days are getting very moody. Always looking forward to sleep and waking up the next day hope feel better. The only problem is I always hope that happens everyday.

Sometimes I feel really lost in this house. Everyone is very inquisitive and always has something to talk or argue about. It bugs me I just want to lie down on my bed and my dad suddenly starts knocking on the door furiously just say something like, 'Eh see you all in the newspaper.' What am I supposed to say then? Like okay... Yeah.. So? Big deal man... I have a very over enthusiastic family. Just leave me alone man.

Yeah... Take ganja with coke and it'll make you healthy.

Good day.

This was written at 5:31 pm on Tuesday, August 2